This has been a good year, but a hard year. There have been more downs than ups.
I do a lot of things in the year. I am the main caregiver to my son, I write this blog and two others, I do the finances for my wife’s business and our home, and I am still trying to work as a performer when I can. I didn’t attain all of my goals this year, but I did get some of them.
While I’ve mostly kept politics off of my blog, I’ve made no secret on social media of my disdain for Herr Drumpf, and my sorrow/depression/anger over his election. I won’t get into it here, but suffice to say that he is unqualified, unprepared, and unctuous, and my personal feeling about the direction of our country under his “leadership” is dark. Perhaps this is how the other side felt about Obama’s election 8 years ago, but of course my angst is worth more! At least then we had a guy with some experience and some political savvy and not a guy who is clearly dishonest and intent on raiding the US for his own personal gain. Not to mention the uncomfortably close comparisons that one can make to Hitler. This has colored ALL of the last 6 months or so for me and my family, and I really have felt depressed. But I digress.
DEATH IN THE AIR
In addition to the celebrity deaths of some of my artistic heroes (David Bowie, Prince, Carrie Fisher, to name a few) I had some personal friends and relatives die. My Aunt Irma, who lived a long good life, and my friends Pat Cashin and David Greene, who basically died suddenly and quickly and far far too soon. In particular, Pat, who was a blogger, a father, and a clown. There but for the grace of God go I.
This has made me feel my mortality in ways that I have been working up to. I’m 52. My son is 8. I’ve got another 25 years if I’m statistically average, but I’m overweight, I have high blood pressure and both of my parents died young. (Although I did have one grandmother who lived until 103, and a grandfather who lived to 88. And my mother died of cancer from Hepatitis that she had gotten 25 years ago from a blood transfusion. And my father was killed in a car crash. So there is hope for a long life.
I’ve had some health issues, including gum surgery, skin cancer on my nose that required surgery, my first ever colonoscopy the day before the election, and other assorted issues. Just adds to my feelings of mortality.
Despite my weight and the aforementioned issues, I’m still alive! I’ve maintained/lost a little weight, and I’ve accomplished several challenges on a fitness level, including using my recumbent bicycle everyday for a month, biking over 300 miles on the recumbent bike in an 8 week period, and doing a pushup challenge and getting up to 50 pushups a day. (Of course, I then injured myself, and have lost most of that strength) Still I feel good about it, and hope to continue that into the New Year.
I did a few very well-received performances of my flea circus, and took a clown workshop that made me remember how much I like attending workshops. Hope to do more performing during the upcoming year. I have an idea for a new show, and I’d like to get that out the door, if I can.
I’ve written over 70 posts this year on my blog, and looking back, most of them have been reviews of theatre and music. (And I didn’t even write about every play or show I saw!) I’ve really upped my game on critical writing, and would like to continue to do that while writing more posts about parenting. Most of my draft posts this year were about parenting issues and conundrums, and I never finished those posts. My work this year is to finish these posts and continue my work as a critic and reviewer.
My social media has also expanded– I’ve gained something like 500 twitter followers in the last year. I hope to keep expanding that as well.
Wishing all of my readers a Happy and Healthy New Year!